Sunday, April 28, 2019

Sam Reviews "Bird Box" by Josh Malerman

"What else might they like if given the chance to view it?  What would the Girl think of a fox?  A racoon?  Even cars were a myth, with only Malorie's amateur drawings as reference.  Boots, bushes, gardens, storefronts, buildings, streets  and stars.  Why, she would have to recreate the globe for them.  But the best they got was fish.  And the Boy loved them. "

"'In a way, time doesn't mean anything anymore.  But it's one of the only things we have that resembles the lives we used to live.'
"'The passing of time?'
"'Yeah.  And what we do with it.'"

"When the cadences oppose, she feels like she could die."

"Maybe animals can't go mad because their brains are too small."

"It's possible that animals don't have the capacity to go mad. Maybe a thing has to be smart enough to lose its mind."

"Muted colors of decay rather than the explosive hues of impact."

"Gary is explaining to Don the way Frank thought. Always the way Frank thought. Never quite what Gary thinks himself."

"Far behind, she heads something she's never heard.  It's like lightning.  A new kind. Or like birds, all of them, in every tree, no longer singing, no longer cooing, but screaming."

"It is better to face madness with a plan than to sit still and let it take you in pieces."

Saturday, April 20, 2019

Sam Reviews "Fight Club" by Chuck Palahniuk

"Destroying every scrap of history."

"This isn't about love as in caring.  This is about property as in ownership."

"Where would Jesus be if no one had written the gospels?"

"Crying is right at hand in the smothering dark, closed inside someone else, when you see how everything you can ever accomplish will end up as trash. Anything you're ever proud of will be thrown away."

"This is when I'd cry because right now, your life comes down to nothing, and not even nothing, oblivion.  It's easy to cry when you realize that everyone you love will reject you or die."

"Losing all hope was freedom."

"Because I can't hit bottom, I can't be saved."

"This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time."

"One minute was enough, a person had to work hard for it, but a minute of perfection was worth the effort.  A moment was the most you could ever expect from perfection."

"You've got your sofa issue handled.  Then the right set of dishes. Then the perfect bed. The drapes. The rug. Then you're trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you."

"A lot of young people try to impress the world and buy too many things. A lot of young people don't know what they really want. Young people, they think they want the whole world. If you don't know what you want, you end up with a lot you don't."

"May I never be complete. May I never be content. May I never be perfect."

"I just don't want to die without a few scars."

"Nothing is static. Even the Mona Lisa is falling apart."

"Maybe self-improvement isn't the answer.  Maybe self-destruction is the answer."

"Maybe we need to break everything to make something better out of ourselves."

"Nothing was solved when the fight was over, but nothing mattered."

"Sometimes you do something, and you get screwed. Sometimes it's the things you don't do, and you get screwed."

"I am Joe's Enraged, Inflamed Sense of Rejection."

"According to the ancient Chinese custom we all learned from television, Tyler is responsible for Marla, forever, because Tyler saved Marla's life."

"The girl is infectious human waste, and she's confused and afraid to commit to the wrong thing so she won't commit to anything.  [She] has no faith in herself, and she's worried that as she grows older, she'll have fewer
and fewer options. Good luck."

"I should run from self-improvement, and I should be running towards disaster.  I can't just play it safe anymore."

"It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything."

"A tiger can smile
"A snake will say it loves you
"Lies make us evil."

"The last thing I want is [her] moving on, one piece of crap at a time."

"Maybe the point is not to forget the rest of yourself if one little part might go bad."

"There are a lot of things we don't want to know about the people we love."

"If this might be the last time they saw you, they really saw you. You had their full attention. People listened instead of just waiting for their turn to speak."

"Only through destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit."

"I wanted to destroy everything beautiful I'd never have."

"Sweet woodruff gives soap a cut grass smell."

"If you're male and you're Christian and living in America, your father is your model for God.  And if you never knew your father, if your father bails out or dies or is never at home, what do you believe about God?"

"A moment was the most you could ever expect from perfection."

"That old saying, about how you always kill the thing you love, well it works both ways."

"Sometimes you find your father in your career."

"How everything you ever love will reject you or die.  Everything you ever create will be thrown away.  Everything you're proud of will end up as trash."

"We are not special.  We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens."

Afterword:

"There is nothing a blue-collar nobody in Oregon with a public school education can imagine that a million-billion people haven't already done."

"Being tired isn't the same as being rich, but most of the time it's close enough."


Monday, April 15, 2019

Sam Reviews "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" by Ken Kesey

"[She] thinks any word or gesture that does not smack od brickyard brawn and brutality is a word or gesture of weak dandyism."

"It's like an old clock that won't tell time but won't stop neither, with the hands bent out of shape and the face bare of numbers and the alarm bell rusted silent, an old, worthless clock that just keeps ticking and cuckooing without meaning nothing."

"As soon as you let down your guard, as soon as you lose once, she's won for good.  And eventually we all got to lose.  Nobody can help that."

"There's no better way in the world  to aggravate somebody who's trying to make it hard for you than by acting like you're not bothered."

"His face is out to me like the face of a beggar, needing so much more'n anybody can give."

"You got to understand that as soon as a man goes to help somebody, he leaves himself wide open."

"Just like she was above him, and sex, and everything else that's weak and of the flesh."

"There'd be my face in the mirror...and I'd think, That ain't me, that ain't my face.  I wasn't even me when I was trying to be that face.  I wasn't even really me then; I was just being the way I looked, the way people wanted.  It don't seem like I ever been me."

"I was seeing him different than when he first came in; I was seeing more to him than just big hands and red sideburns and a broken-nosed grin.  I'd see him do things that didn't fit with his face or hands, things like painting a picture ... or like writing letters to somebody in a beautiful flowing hand. How could a man who looked like him paint pictures or write letters to people or he upset and worried like I saw him once when he got a letter back?"

"He hadn't let what he looked like run his life one way or another."

"You don't have to apologize for my noi nadequacies, my friend.  It neither fits your character nor complements mine."

"I wanted to reach over and touch the place where he was tattooed, to see if he was still alive. He's lying awful quiet, I told myself, I got to touch him to see if he still alive... That's a lie. I know he's still alive. That ain't the reason I want to touch him. I want to touch him because he's a man. That's a lie too. There's other men around. I could touch them I want to talk to him because I'm one of those queers! But that's a lie too. That's one fear hiding behind another. If I was one of those queers I want to do other things with him. I just want to touch him because he's who he is."

"Perhaps the more insane a man is, the more powerful he could become."

"You have to laugh at the things that hurt you to keep yourself in balance."

"An expression that was allowed only because he figured it'd be too dark for anybody in the car to see, dreadfully tired and strained and frantic, like there wasn't enough time left for something he had to do..."

"His relaxed, good-natured voice doled out his life for us to live, a rollicking past full of kid fun and drinking buddies and loving women and barroom battles over meager honors - for all of us to dream ourselves into."

"[He was] growing almost into a legend. A man out of sight can't be made to look weak."

"Her shoulders and breasts and hips were too wide and her grin too big and open for her to ever be called beautiful, but she was pretty and she was healthy."

Wednesday, February 20, 2019

Sam Reviews "Paradise Lost and Other Poems" by John Milton

[From the Introduction by Edward Le Comte]

"All that is known of her up to her last days ... points to her having made a satisfactory wife (though not a good step-mother - perhaps it was impossible to be both)."

[From Paradise Lost]

"[He] who overcomes by force hath overcome but half his foe."

"I made him just and right, sufficient to have stood, though free to fall."

"They themselves ordained their fall, the first sort by their own suggestion fell, self-tempted, self-depraved; Man falls, deceived by the other first; Man therefore, shall find grace, The other, none; in mercy and justice both, Trough Heaven and Earth, shall my glory excell, but mercy, first and last, shall brightest shine."

"Night would invade; but there the neighbouring Moon (So call that opposite fair star) her aid Timely interposes, and, her monthly round still ending, still renewing, through mid-heaven, with borrowed light her countenance triform hence fills and empties to enlighten the Earth, and her pale dominion checks the night."

"While they adore me ... The lower still I fall, only supreme misery - such joy ambition finds!"

"Never can true reconcilement grow where wounds of deadly hate have pierced so deep - which would but lead me to a worse relapse and heavier fall."

"So farewell hope, and with hope, farewell fear, farewell remorse! All good to me is lost; Evil, be thou my Good."

"Not equal, as their sex not equal seemed; for contemplation he and valour formed, for softness she and sweet attractive grace; He for God only, she for God on him."

"Were it toilsome, yet with thee were sweet."

"He, in delight both of her beauty and submissive charms, smiled with superior love, as Jupiter on Juno smiles when he impregns the clouds that shed May flowers, and pressed her matron lip with kisses pure."

"Knowledge forbidden?  Suspicious, reasonless.  Why should their Lord envy them that? Can it be a sin to know?  Can it be death? And do they only stand by ignorance?  Is that their happy state, the proof of their obedience and their faith?"

"Happier though thou art, happier thou may'st, worthier canst not be."

"In those hearts love unlibidinous reigned, no jealousy was understood, the injured lover's hell."

"Heaven is for thee too high to know what passes there.  Be lowly wise; think only what concerns thee and thy being; dream not of other worlds, what creatures there live, in what state, condition, or degree, contented that thus far hath been received not of Earth only, but of highest Heaven."

"Freed from intricacies, taught to live the easiest way, nor with perplexing thoughts to interrupt the sweet of life, from which God hath bid dwell far off all anxious cares, and not molest us, unless we ourselves seek them with wandering thoughts, and notions vain!"

"She deserts thee not if thou dismiss not her."

"That higher in her society thou find'st attractive, human, rational, love still:  In loving thou dost well, in passion not, wherein true love consists not.  Love refines the thoughts, and heart enlarges, hath his seat in Reason, and is judicious, is the scale by which to heavenly love thou may'st ascend, not sunk in carnal pleasure."

"To love thou blam'st me not, for Love, thou say'st leads up to Heaven, is both the way and guide."

"Go; for thy stay, not free, absents thee more."

"Adorned she was indeed, and lovely, to attract thy love, not thy subjection."

"If thou well observe the rule of Not Too Much, by temperance taught in what thou eat'st and drink'st, seeking from thence due nourishment, not gluttonous delight, till many years over thy head return; So may'st thou live, till, like ripe fruit, thou drop into thy mother's lap, or be at ease gathered, not harshly plucked, for death mature; This is old age; but then thou must outlive thy youth, they strength, thy beauty, which will change to withered, weak, and grey; Thy senses then obtuse, all taste of pleasure must forgo to what thou hast; And, for the air of youth, hopeful and cheerful, in thy blood will reign a melancholy damp of cold and dry to weigh thy spirits down, and last consume the balm of life."

[From Samson Agonistes]

"'Agonistes' in Greek means a contestant in the games."

"'Agonize' in the seventeenth century meant to 'play the champion' and had nothing to do with inner torment."

"Blind among enemies, O worse than chains, dungeon, or beggary, or decrepit age!  Light, the prime work of God, to me is extinct, and all her various objects of delight annulled, which might in part my grief have eased."

"Nothing of all these evils hath befallen me but justly; I myself have brought them on; sole author I, sole cause."

"To break all faith, all vows, deceive, betray, then, as repentant, to submit, beseech, confess, and promise wonders in her change, nor truly penitent, but chief to try her husband."

"If weakness may excuse, what murderer, what traitor, parricide, incestuous, sacrilegious, but may plead it? All wickedness is weakness.".

"Love seeks to have love."

"In vain thou striv'st to cover shame with shame, or by evasions thy crime uncover'st more."

"'Let me approach at least, and touch thy hand.'
"'Not for thy life, lest fierce remembrance wake my sudden rage to tear thee joint from joint.  At distance I forgive thee; go with that.'"

[Preface to Lycidas]
"Nature is a haunted house; Art is a house that tries to be haunted." -Emily Dickinson

Sunday, January 20, 2019

Sam Reviews "Tree Girl" by Ben Mikaelsen

This book came into my life randomly and second hand with no recommendation.  When I started reading it I assumed it was meant for middle school readers (and that may be true) but there was a bit of somewhat graphic details of tragic events.  The fact that this story is based on truth makes it all the more compelling.  But, even if it was pure fiction I would love it.  The story is heartbreaking and eye opening but ends on a hopeful note.  My only complaint is where the story ends.  The author's dedication implies the girl who originally told this story did live to tell this story but the book itself doesn't take us to current day.  I want to know more about Gabriela.  Parts of the story and style remind me of Anne Frank's Diary of a Young Girl although that may be simply a matter of content.  Either way, I found this book easy to dive into and compelling enough to complete and thirst for more so I would recommend it to anyone looking for a short read that doesn't mind some tear jerking (and sometimes infuriating) content.

"Humiliation was not a poison that cowards needed to taste twice."

"Cowards can be very dangerous when they have guns."

"Knowing Spanish, and knowing this or that, doesn't prepare you for the future.  Your future is found in discovering the right questions to ask and having the courage to ask them.  Good questions are always more important than good answers, but it takes courage to ask.  You may understand how you live, but do you understand why you live?"

"Right is whatever wind you choose beneath your wings.  No longer do all our customs and names come from our Mayan ancestors.  Now they come from many winds.  It's up to you to decide which wind should carry you.  You need to decide for yourself if it was wrong for the church to change our names."

"I don't think you can respect someone but still want to change their religion, their customs, and even their names."

"It's okay to be fearful and restless.  Fear and restlessness bring change."

"A whipped dog has a long memory."

"Promises borrow from the future."

"It seemed impossible to me, as I stared at the baby, to think that soldiers had begun their lives so small, vulnerable, and innocent."

"For you, being a female is a war that you'll fight all of your life.  For both of us, being Indio is a war we fought even before the soldiers came."

"Children grow up with nothing if they don't learn pride and dignity."

"A good teacher didn't criticize an idea simply because it came from a young woman instead of him.  A good teacher embraced new ideas."

"I know now why you survived the massacres.  You were too stubborn to die."


Monday, December 24, 2018

Sam Reviews "The Leadership Secrets of Oz" by BJ Gallagher

This was an interesting little book.  It has a number of good points, interesting references to the story of Oz, and original art from the Oz books as well.  I think the tips in this book are solid, although I feel also commonly talked about.  However, my favorite tidbits tended to be quotes by people other than the author.  This was a quick and informative read with some interesting critical thinking questions.

"If your work speaks for itself, don't interrupt." - Henry Kaiser

"Actions speak louder than words and people watch what you do more than listen to what you say."

"If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.  Do good anyway.
"If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.  Succeed anyway.
"The good you so today will be forgotten tomorrow.  Do good anyway.
"Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.  Be honest and frank anyway.
"The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.  Think big anyway.
"People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.  Fight for a few underdogs anyway.
"What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.  Build anyway.
"People really need help but may attack you of you do help them.  Help people anyway.
"Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.  Give the world the best you have anyway."
- Kent Keith

Friday, December 21, 2018

Sam Reviews: "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" by Stieg Larsson

I would like to start by saying, when this story was all over everywhere, I had no idea the book was a crime novel.  I used to gobble these up like candy in middle school (mature content be damned) and may have even enjoyed this book more at that time in my life.  I'm honestly quite shocked that a foreign crime novel got so much attention.  I was extremely interested in half the story (the Chronicle if you will) but the other half (the financial bits) I found pretty boring.  As accomplished as I felt for finishing this book, the last 60 or so pages were pretty lame.  I have very mixed feelings regarding Mikael Blomkvist, but the ending really left a bad taste in my mouth for him.  I also wanted to note that I find it interesting that (I believe) Lisbeth Salander is the "main character" (the character the title revers too at least) but in reading the book, if I hadn't known the title I would have assumed Blomkvist was the main character.  With that in mind I am curious to know how / where the other two books go as their titles strongly imply Salander's presence but not necessarily Blomkvist's.  Over all I managed to read through this pretty quickly, and it is quite a lengthy book compared to my usual reads, so there was something endearing about the mystery and the characters themselves.  I do intend to finish the trilogy but ... I'm not sure how soon that will happen.

"Leviticus, 20:18 - If a man lies with a woman having her sickness, and uncovers her nakedness, he has made naked her fountain, and she has uncovered the fountain of her blood; both if them shall be cut off from among their people."

"Maybe he's just a square peg in a round hole who happens to be poisoning the atmosphere."

"He's pulling the load of an ox and walking on eggshells."

"'What do you need me for?'  [Her] greatest fear, which was so huge and so black that it was of phobic proportions, was that people would laugh at her feelings.  And all of a sudden all her carefully constructed self-confidence seemed to crumble."